Over The Borderline: Daily Nugget

Sunday, August 28, 2011

Daily Nugget

Today's Memory Nugget is again brought to you by Sutter Home Chardonney...because I can't seem to find the Whipped Orange Pinnacle Vodka I've heard so much about.

I was about 9.
My grandparents (my mother's parents) wanted to take me to stay with them for the summer.
For two months I was to be 500 miles and 6 hours away from home.
My grandparents and I are in the car in front of my house, and we are giving our final waves before pulling away.
I looked up at my mother standing in the doorway, and she is crying...and crying.
"Why is she crying?", I thought, "...she doesn't even like me."

Memories light the corners of my mind.

1 comment:

LaceAugust 31, 2011 at 10:39 PM
How sad! I sure hope your grandparents made life more normal for those 2 months.
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From the National Institute of Mental Health website

Borderline personality disorder (BPD) is a serious mental illness characterized by pervasive instability in moods, interpersonal relationships, self-image, and behavior. This instability often disrupts family and work life, long-term planning, and the individual's sense of self-identity. Originally thought to be at the "borderline" of psychosis, people with BPD suffer from a disorder of emotion regulation.

People with BPD often have highly unstable patterns of social relationships. While they can develop intense but stormy attachments, their attitudes towards family, friends, and loved ones may suddenly shift from idealization (great admiration and love) to devaluation (intense anger and dislike). Thus, they may form an immediate attachment and idealize the other person, but when a slight separation or conflict occurs, they switch unexpectedly to the other extreme and angrily accuse the other person of not caring for them at all. Even with family members, individuals with BPD are highly sensitive to rejection, reacting with anger and distress to such mild separations as a vacation, a business trip, or a sudden change in plans. These fears of abandonment seem to be related to difficulties feeling emotionally connected to important persons when they are physically absent, leaving the individual with BPD feeling lost and perhaps worthless. Suicide threats and attempts may occur along with anger at perceived abandonment and disappointments.
People with BPD exhibit other impulsive behaviors, such as excessive spending, binge eating and risky sex. BPD often occurs together with other psychiatric problems, particularly bipolar disorder, depression, anxiety disorders, substance abuse, and other personality disorders.